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i never told you this, but i miss you so much. i miss those days when all we fought about were broken crayons and uncapped glue sticks. now we stand on the tip of a mountain and the end is crumbling, groaning under our feet. we're going to fall, the both of us, together, just like the beginning. but we aren't the same. we aren't the same little girls who watched the stars wink and burst every night the sky was clear or cloudy, it didn't really matter to us. We are different in a million ways, and a zillion little shards of glass prink my mouth every time your name comes up in conversation. i miss you and i don't know if you really know how much you mean to me. i never told you this, but i just want you to be happy and i don't know if that includes me so i'll be in the background if you ever need me.
i never told you this, but i think you're so handsome. not in the most striking way, but in the way that makes me want to get closer, to get to know you. in the way that makes me turn towards the sound of your voice, your laugh, your sigh. will you be mine? just for a awhile?
i never told you this, but i am so gratefuly towards you. we've had our rough patches, but that's all in the past. you're so nice to me, even through i don't deserve it. you believe in me even when i don't see it, which is all the time, but i'm happy that at least one person sees something good in me. i never told you this, but sometimes i think that you really don't care, that you're just stringing me along. and what really irks me, is that you don't even seem to realize that you're doing it. but i'll never tell you that i feel this way because you've done so much for me already, it just wouldn't be fair.
i never told you this, but thank you for believing in my writing. you're the reason why i started writing in the first place.
i never told you this, but i really can not stand you. my past is filled with liars and i just don't have the patience to even pretend i believe you. you once told me that you care, but if you really did i wouldn't be second guessing this fake friendship. but i'm done worrying if you're my friend anymore. it's hard to look you straight in the eye and talk to you. i mean, you wouldn't care anyway. i never told you this, but i really miss you. i miss all the crazy things we did and how much trouble we nearly avioded. but when i was hurting and avoiding everyone,including you, you replaced me eith someone else and that left a huge cut in my already battered heart. the cut was deep, darling. and i don't know when i'll heal, just don't expect it to be soon.
i never told you this, but i'm scared. i'm scared my past will sink it's claws in my flesh and tear me away again. i don't want to go back to that place. you've got to help me, please. i never told you this, but i don't think you're even strong enough to carry yourself along this bumpy road.
i never told you this, but i think you're a coward with a backbone as thick as a rainbow. you were a baby bird who had never flown before and were about to fall off the edge of your safest haven. i took pity and caught you before you splattered to the ground. you released all your problems to my demons that i had managed to fend off and then just left me to deal with the monsters tearing away at me. when i finally clawed out of their grasps, you'd already taken the prize and ran. i was left to heal on my own and you will never know how hard that was for me. i never told you this, but i forgave you a long time ago. in the beginning, i didn't know what to do and i was angry that you'd just left me hanging without preamble. but then i realized that you'd reached your goal and that you were happier, so it was then that i forgave you.
i never told you this, but i miss you and it's killing me.
i never told you this, but for a moment i was in love with you. it was those mid-afternoon drives after school when we both had nothing to do but wait for the moon to devour the sun. because don't you remember? we were both just looking for a way out..and the stars were our closest friends...but wait, it might have been singing oldie songs while driving and driving and driving and just driving for what seemed like hours but was really just until the limits of our old hick town. no, what wasn't it, it was knowing that we were both lost kids with no one to turn to. it was knowing that we'd both written our one less than perfect signatures on a contract that was barely visible to the both of us. it was knowing that we both could have been something, something messy and damaged, and knowing that we both knew how fragile we both were.
i never told you this, but i think you are an amazing person who deserves the whole world(and surrounding planets.) you constantly remind me how beautiful i am and even if i never answer you, just know that i look forward to each time i see you. you see something in me that i've tired to find, but haven't been able to see past all the cobwebs cluttering my skeleton heart. thank you.
i never told anyone this, but i'm such a mess. you'll never be able to find me now.
i never told you this, but i will never forget when i was picked to be the little princess and you were my little prince.oh, boy..we were the talk of the town.. you should know what an amazing guy i think you are. you're so nice and sweet when it really comes down to it, when you take off that act of yours. just know that i'll alawys be there for you and that i'll always love you, no matter how much you mess up.
i never told you this, but what you said really struck a nerve. it would have hurt less if you had taken a knife and tore my already tattered heart from it's freshly sewn seams. i don't know when i'll be able to forgive you, i really don't know.
i never told you this, but i just don't understand what you're trying to accomplish. are you even happy with him? you don't look it. i think you're lying to yourself, but whatever makes you happy, darling, makes me happy. just don't say i never warned you.
i never told you this, but thanks for not giving up on me.
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Bliss
The red tinted moon rose across the lake, just past a line of houses and trees, looking as if a new sun were rising.
The chilled wind pushed my hair away from my face, and my worries away from my thoughts.
Then suddenly, there you were. Standing next to me, making it feel all the more like a dream.
As you took my hand, my body felt relief. Your touch puts my troubles at ease.
'We're going to our spot,' you said with a smile. The change of one simple word, filled me with happiness; it was no longer simply yours, but ours. As if the last time we were there, we had changed it's meaning.
The moon continued to rise through thin clouds; the b
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Make a Change
We are not an object that
you can label by a color.
We have hopes and dreams
And plans for the future.
We are not someone who
You can use to make
Yourself feel better.
N****, whore, negro,
Slut, baby daddy
Isn’t a title you have
The right to bestow
On us or on any
Person of color.
Why can’t we live in
A world where we don’t
Have to be worried about
Our brothers being shot
And our sisters looking for
Their children’s fathers.
We are all human beings.
We all love and love others,
So why can’t we accept
Our differences and come
Together as one people
Who are all on this planet
We call Earth.
Let’s st
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on the cusp
it is just that when i let go of you
when i let go
it's hard to remain that perfect without you.
--
the in-between of love, buds- so full of potential
our love is written in whispers on the pages
of a book which has not yet been opened.
--
that day, the sun had erased the last lines
of an unforgiving winter from my skin, i was renewed
olive skinned and feeling as if i had just fled the eternal
garden naked as i came- free, fallen.
--
the sky was dark;
nothing but the blood red smile of the moon
cut through the transient darkness of the night.
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there's too many people i have things to say too. too many people and not enough time. these are only a few- the few ghosts i'm ready to let go of.
**madisonelizabethmrsfleetwoodbrycescottkoblyeveryoneolivi
amichaelreaganalishaelizabethmadisonelizabethreagan.
(**these are in no specific order. yes, some belong to the one person.)
**madisonelizabethmrsfleetwoodbrycescottkoblyeveryoneolivi
amichaelreaganalishaelizabethmadisonelizabethreagan.
(**these are in no specific order. yes, some belong to the one person.)
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this is just, too beautiful for words <3